Saturday, January 31


So much hate in this world. Don't get me started. I could just break down one of these days. Anytime now.

I've pissed so many people today, I've lost count. Some things will never be the same again.

Friday, January 30

i know it's sad

What can I blog about the AweFour's three day two night stay at my place? 'Twas fun. Fun indeed. We sang to people on MSN, webcammed, blogstalked, MySpace stalked, updated Yuray, read FanFics and to me which was by far the most productive, played, watched TV and a couple of movies, played with make up, ate A LOT (I swear, I think in the three days and two nights, the four of us went down to the kitchen to eat for more than 10 times) and yes, made a diary. Something like Sisterhood Of The Travelling Pants I suppose, but yeah, diary. Mira forgot to take it back though. I've got some pictures in my phone, but I have yet to find my USB cable in this huge mess (my bedroom). Oh and Hasya finished watching two seasons of Friends without me. I have nearly 50 episodes to catch up on. Argh.

I've got some homework left,
til then,
Hanna Haizal

Thursday, January 29

playtime for the young and stupid ;o

Hello-ness! Yes, that was what I used at the start of every diary entry (Or some of them anyway) when I was in Standard 6. Mira : Aren't I cool?! Indeed. And no, that's not the only embarassing thing I found in there -.- Well we were going through my two old diaries, Dear Alife and Dear Draco James Lovegood (OI DON'T LAUGH LA), and I was covering my face in shame nearly the whole time -.- ALSO found Nad and I's old scrapbook(s), the ones we made when we loved liked Simple Plan :3 "SIMPLE PLAN FANS ONLY. Private!" Then I drew a picture of a girl at the bottom ^o) Yes, a girl. So anw, besides that, we went through MySpace profiles 8D Oh, and we eat too much -.- I think we ate around 4 times in one hour -.- The Nads slept at 5.20 or so, and they told Mira she was talking about forms and Michael (?!) and I was talking about girls and New Year's (?!?!?!). Ah, Nadd said that Mira kept licking her lips HAHA LOL. I don't seem to remember dreaming about girls and New Year's, and neither did Mira ;o NO, I didn't talk about girls that way. I have no inspiration to blog, it's 9:13am, the Nads are asleep and Mira and I are online ;D We're just waiting for them to talk about forms, Michael(s), girls and New Year's >;D

Have a good day!

Wednesday, January 28

Didn't know I could do that. Talk to myself, I mean. Tired of Friends, been watching it all day with Hasya. Aww, look at Joey in that picture.

Tuesday, January 27

karyna illiyyiana <3

YM is so cool. Why didn't anyone tell me?!


Mai Najihaaah ;D This was so much fun.

YES, I did printscreen with my toe -.-

Not enough photos to do a 9-piece collage. 'twas fun :)

Haha, Jim was in Australia, if I'm not mistaken.

Webcam with Mira, with Hasya and Hilman butting in :)

The day we (Nad, Nadd, Eli and I) succeeded in making our own mushroom soup. From the tin, of course :)

I've got a sad collection of Webcam photos, just thought I'd share some of them here.
Went to Elynna's just now, had fun :) Ate a lot too. Am definitely gaining weight. Sigh.
No mood to blog, off to sleep :)

Sunday, January 25

are you serious?!

Great. I edited my previous post just now and when I published the post, well, it wasn't published. Now, I don't know where it is -.-


Have a great year ahead of you,
best of luck for your studies and of course, PMR :)

So that's what I remember from the old post. Oh, and I watched Inkheart. That's about it I think.

Last night was talking to Nad and Nadd, then Nad accidently added Ungku Nad to the convo, HAHA but she didn't exit, 'twas fun ;) Yes, we'll rob your kitchen >;D Oh, and I was also the only Hanna. Nadiah, Nadiah, Nadia. Perrrfect :)
Woke up at 9.30 today, and I have no idea why,  as soon as I was up and fully awake, I started doing homework! Yep. And now, I've just got my Science and Agama notes to finish. Wait, and the ICTL presentation as well -.-

For once, I'm not procrastinating as much :)
Off to draw the diagram of the ear now,


i will stand accused

The song Best Of Me by Sum 41 is stuck in my head, heard it on Ellynne's blog and yeah :) It's nice, really. Maybe not for your liking but oh well. Yesterday, I went to Karyna's house to do our first ICTL assignment. Well obviously it's not done yet :D Nearly though. Karyna and Pik Leng were camwhoring most of the time and Angela was playing Loco Roco on Karyna's PSP -_- I, on the other hand, was eating Aunty's brownies and scones! Ohmygod, they taste so good :3 I also ate most of the Mandarin oranges served, heh sorry :s Well after Pik Leng and Yasshene went back, Angela, Karyna and I played Twister! I miss that game. Ayah, Mommy, Hasya and Hilman fetched me at 6:30 and off we went to OU, in hopes of searching a fridge and a painting for Ayah's office. Ended up buying neither but instead, bought a family guitar (?). Also bought tickets to watch Inkheart tonight -.- Hasya and Hilman's been pleading endlessly, literally, for the past one month to watch it. I wanna watch Bride Wars, Australia, and / or Pink Panther 2! Movie marathon in one day, oh god that would be nice. Pink Panther 2 comes out early next month though, I hope Australia's still in cinemas. Anyone? :)

I'm sorry
It's all that I can say
You mean so much and I'd fix all that I've done
If I could start again
I'd throw it all away to the shadows of regrets
And you would have the best of me.

Saturday, January 24


So I got home from Aunty Abid's at 1:45am. By then, Mira and Nad were already offline. Sorry :/ Slept sooon after, woke up at 8. It's considered a good night's sleep for me since I took a 4 hour nap right after dinner. I think I'mma catch up on all my homework today and tomorrow, so at least I won't procrastinate and finish it all the night before school reopens. Knowing me, I'll end up doing so anyway. Okay so, truth be told, I actually like homework. You can go all wide-eyed and walk away now. Yes, I know I don't always finish it in time and I always complain about too much homework but hey, I haven't been revising lately and I do plan to get straight A's this March test, haha -.- Besides, it's not all that bad right? Right? And I'm still in lower secondary, homework will be a downright burden starting Form 4. Or Form 3, in fact. Since time is gold, (LOL) I think I'll only go online at night for this one week that we don't have school. During the day, I'll attempt to study, catch up on Friends, and watch The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. I heard it's good. I'll see to that myself. I'm actually going to miss school :)
I'll give the hiatus a rest, will probably start blogging regularly until the 1st :)

Friday, January 23

boy and girl

I've decided from now on, I'll keep a notebook where I write down in summary on what's happening every day, so at least when I blog during the weekends / public holidays, I'd be able to write about my past week and such. Might seem pathetic, as no one's been reading my blog but yeah. Oh, I passed the Interact interview! I. Was. So. Nervous. During. The. Interview. I. Was. Playing. With. My. Hands. Throughout. The. Whole. Time. Thank God anyways :) Orientation started today, and after the CNY break we'll have around 5 days or so to get the 10 BODs signature. I've got two! And only after debating with myself whether or not to go ask for the signature, for around 30 minutes. No exaggeration. I am a sanguine Interact probationer. Yes, many people have asked me what it means and I think it's really just another word to replace optimistic. I think. Going to Aunty Abid's for a potluck (?), hope to fill my tummy with delicious delicacies (?!). Will blog later tonight, or later this week as we're free for 9 days! Happy Chinese New Year, to those who're celebrating it :)

Monday, January 19

on a weekend

I know what I said about not going online on weekdays. But I've been given some slack and I'm allowed to go online around half an hour every night. I might not be able to stop myself (LOL), but I'll try to go online for only that length of time, no longer, and only after finishing my homework. (As I'm typing this, I am also finishing my Agama homework, hoyeah ;p). I've got Interact interview tomorrow, yes, I'm scared. Shitless :( I've got Blue House practise tomorrow as well. And tuition. Joy ;) I'm not complaining. More to silent rantings and whining in my head, really. What's not to be expected? I've got three more years to go. I'm starting to like school too. Minus the homework, obviously. I don't think I quite mind all the staybacks, either. It's just that as soon as I get home, I'd doze off 'til about 7pm, go back to Damansara, then do my homework. By the time I'm done it'd be around 10.30pm, and I'd be too tired to do anything else. Why do you think I long for weekends? By the way, Happy 15th Birthday Danial Roslan :)

* * * * *

Last Saturday, went to Sabrina's for her 14th birthday do. She's 10 months older than me! Dang, her house is huge and realllyyyy nice. I haven't uploaded the pictures into the laptop yet, but you can get some from Nad. Mai accidently made a tissue catch fire, everybody at our table panicked and heads turned to see a flamin' tissue, literally. It then came to Mai's senses to dump the tissue in her glass of water, so yeah ;))) Okay so I've got homework to finish, and yes, well over half an hour :s Updating just for the sake of updating :) Will be back with more meaningless updates, til then!

Hanna Haizal

Friday, January 16


My blog archive is so sad. Ever since I started blogging I've had more than 30 posts every month. Today is the 16th of January and I've blogged four times, two of which I blogged on the same day. Anw, Happy 14th Birthday Intan Azalea & Ng Pui San! When I was younger, I used to be so jealous of those people who had early birthdays, now I guess I don't mind but yeah. Waiting for your birthday can be a greaaat bore especially when everyone else already turned a year older. I've got Nadd, Seri, Aisyah and others to share late birthdays with :) Can't be that bad, right?

I haven't been blogging for so long, look what homework and books have done to me.

Today at school was okay. Had AGM for Blue House, Dian's our president, Hani our vice and Kayshana our 2nd vice! Soo Sun got AJK Tingkatan 2 and Cela got AJK Tingkatan 3, ahaha. Kai got AJK Tingkatan 1, I think she's still pissed at me for voting her but yeah, you get merit points la ;)

I haven't watching Friends for so, so, so long. Since New Year to be exact. Might not seem so long but I forgot where I left off. I. Love. Joey 8D I even set my alarm to Rembrandts - I'll be there for you. Psychotic much? Maybe. But I wake up on the first ring (Y)

Off to watch Friends now,
Have a great weekend everybody :)

Happy Advanced 14th Birthday Sabrinaaa! Just an hour and a half more, oh well. Have a blast :)

tagged by naaaaad!

Bold the statements that are true to you. Italicize the statements that you wish are true. Leave the Fibs alone. Then, tag 5 people to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch TV these days.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.

I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm totally smart.
I've broken someone's bones.

I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. (HAHAHA)
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.

I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop then eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I dislike them.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.

I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends. (and family)
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career. (HAHAHAHAHA)
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I have dated a close friends's ex.
I am happy at this moment.
I'm obsessed with guys
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausage.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals. (and not true, too. so so)
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i study with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

Saturday, January 10

all i'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee

Went to Tropicana City Mall today. It's okay I guess, tons of shops. Borders there is so tiny compared to the one at Curve. Saw a really nice big notebook with guitars and drums at the front, for freaking RM50 -_- And GSC's not open yet. I guess the only thing worth going there is GSC, since there's really not that many shops there (yet). Toys R Us is also... Small. Followed Aunty Adik and Wan there, and ate lunch with Aunty Lynn and family. Bought a beret, or something like it anyway. Planning to buy a wallet I can use 'til the end of Form 5. Aaah -.- I've realised I tend to wear stripes a lot nowadays, and black + grey / white too. Just now the only thing I had on without stripes was... My jeans, yeah. So that's another piece of irrelevant information. The weekend's about to end, and I haven't done my homework. I have to dig through last year's Form 1 books to find my Geography notebook and Seni textbook. Shoot. I have no idea where they are -.- I think I recycled them, shoooot. Yeah, this is my last update 'til next Friday night prolly, or maybe I'll blog once again tonight after dinner. I have a strong, strong feeling I'll stop blogging so much soon. Then I'll definitely have nothing to do online or at home. Read books, Hanna. Study, Hanna. Go help around the house, Hanna.

Sad, sad life. Honestly.

Friday, January 9

we were both young when i first saw you

Been on hiatus for nearly a week now. In two days, back on hiatus again. So first week of school wasn't all that bad. In fact, it was fun :) Got KD again, but now alongside Aqila who's PKD! She sits beside me in class, we sit in front of Seri, Karyna and Karishma. Can you imagine? Karyna and her self-ads, oh my god (Y) So yeah, overall it really was okay but the one period extended to an hour thing is a dead letdown. Less books? Pfft. One subject requires 6 books, sort of -.- So yeah, homework increasing by the day. And I've only gone through 5 days of school. Reading back my previous posts, I did make a big fuss about school starting soon and all. My god -.- Anw, Form1s, my my, so many! D: I haven't bought anything to eat for recess since the start of this week. So bloody crowded, I tell you. Oh and the Form1s get tables! I remember last year, throughout nearly the whole year, my friends and I had to stand. Well I guess if we took the effort to get a table, we'd get one but oh well.

On the way back home today, I had a conversation with Mommy:

Hanna : Mommy, is McDonald's Jew?
Mommy : Well, it's owned by American-Jews, I think. Even if it's American, well, they support Israel don't they? Whatever we buy from these shops and restauraunts, if we purchase anything, it goes back to America / Israel. And I don't think I'll have to tell you what they do with the money, especially with this Palestin and Israel war going on.
Hanna : Bombs.
Mommy : Right.
Hanna : So wait, it means we can't buy food or clothes from all these shops and such?
Mommy : Hanna, have you seen the pictures of all those children who got bombed and killed? If you can actually watch them die, well, by all means, go ahead.
Hanna : Oh.
Mommy : I don't think you've been watching news or reading the newspaper. Out of the 700 people who died, more than 300 of them were children. Babies, and all.
Hanna : How did this all start off anyway? Israel wanting Palestin's land and such? Israel is right beside Palestin, eh?
Mommy : Israel is IN Palestin. In 1948, the British agreed to give a small land of Palestin to the Jews so they could create a state of their own. Ever since then, they wanted more, more, and more.
Hanna : Oh wow. But Mommy, there are so so so so so many companies under America and Israel. McD's, Coffee Bean, Marks & Spencer, Pizza Hut, (I named more companies after that).
Mommy : Er well, yes. But Secret Recipe is local :D
Hanna : Mm -.- Who is helping Palestin? And who else are on US / Israel's side?
Mommy : America is the most powerful country, you know that right? And with the American-Jews playing a big part in their economy, America will have to be on their side. That's one. You know, British too are practically on America's side. Actually, safe to say, most or all of the non-muslim countries are siding with America. Economy, really.
Hanna : Whaaat? But... clothes? Food? How?
Mommy : -__-" It's not that we can't buy anything from outside, just, well I don't know. Main thing, don't help them buy bombs.
Hanna : Obama isn't doing anything about this?
Mommy : He's not president yet. But even when he becomes president, do YOU think he'll change what's going on? Economy, Hanna. If he helps Palestin, it's, well, betraying the nation and affects the economy and such.
Hanna : He was born Muslim, right?
Mommy : I think so, yes.
Hanna : Those people who died. They'll go to heaven, am I right?
Mommy : Insya'Allah. You know, all those children and babies, of course they will.
Hanna : One good thing. Why aren't the Muslim countries helping Palestin? There's quite a number of Muslim countries right?
Mommy : Right now, the only people helping the Palestin is the Hamas. But they're considered terrorists. Obviously Palestin needs help, right? So it's a last resort sort of thing. They don't have many bombs, compared to the Jews. But it's better than rocks and stones.
Hanna : Wait wait waaait. I can't be friends with Josh?
Mommy : Individually it's okay la.
Hanna : Mommy, he's Jew. He goes to Israel for Summer holidays. He supports them, doesn't he? He doesn't like Muslims, right? He's one of them o.o
Mommy : -_- Well, in that case I guess so. You haven't been in contact with him for quite some time anyway.

And so the conversation went on and on, whilst we were stuck in the jam on the way back. I really, really, really do pity them. Palestin citizens. And I don't quite remember the whole conversation, sorry for wasting your time by reading this, again. Sorry again if I offended anyone. But, sigh. To make things worse, I bought coffee at Starbucks the day I got to know about the recent bombings in Gaza and Palestin. You may call me under-informed about what's happening internationally, but like a give a damn :(

Sunday, January 4

Things are better if I stay


24 hours from now, I'll be at school, waiting for the last bell to ring, then saying to myself, "I survived the first day of school!" Dramatic much? Can't be that bad, right? We'll see. Anyways, from now on I'll only be able to go online during weekends (and Friday nights). This is to prevent myself from hogging the laptop and doing nothing else at home besides onlining. Exxxcellent. I'm going to miss you Blogger. The feeling's mutual, no?

Friday, January 2

Let's gaze into each other's eye..bags.

Colour Me Cliche

Just a weekend more before school starts. Well, I guess I'm excited besides the fact that I've got to wake up at 6am for 5 days in a week starting this Monday. And leave home earlier since Hasya is now Std4 - morning session. Pfft. But hey, like everyone else, I'm up for school cause I'm up for friends :D Yes, the picture above was what I was doing for a good ten minutes (Fine, longer -_-) whilst talking to Mai online. Stupid black background.

Off to watch Friends again! Boy, am I lifeless or what?

Thursday, January 1