Tuesday, February 15

You're all that I hoped I'd find in every single way

Salam Maulidur Rasul to all Muslims! :)

Even though it's only the third day, so far this week's been good. Don't want to let anything to get in the way of how I've been feeling lately. And yes, lately I've been feeling satisfied and actually happy with everything. I hope it stays that way. :D

Awww I like this tee. I think I'll be wearing it today. Captain Underpants ftw! ;)

Have a good Tuesday everyone!

Monday, February 14

Happy Valentine's Day
to those celebrating it!

Friday, February 11



Saturday, February 5

Love hurts. Boys lie. Friends cry. People die. Parents yell. You always try. You're never good enough, and you don't know why.

You know that heavy feeling in your chest when you don't have the desire to do anything except be on your own and cry your heart out about everything- in other words eat your feelings?

The worst part is, most of the time you don't know why you feel that way. And if you do, you prefer to keep it to yourself because usually, it's about the same thing anyway.

I feel that way a lot. Maybe I don't let out as many tears as others but the feeling is there though. That uneasy feeling.

Then I feel nothing but even more horrible. I'm supposed to be grateful for what I have. So many others have it worse out there.

But what do I do? Complain, complain and complain. Whine, whine and whine.

It isn't healthy, I know. It doesn't make me a good person either.

I let out my feelings and I rant to those I think (and hope) are willing to listen. I feel so much better after that, I feel relieved. But what about those people I rant to? I'm sure it's a burden to put up with my nonsense. And I'm sure they have their own problems too, just like everyone else. I'm not the only one with "problems". Mine are nothing but dissatisfactions.

I can be a good friend to those who matter. And I care- even about people whom I'm not close to. Strangers. I am concerned.

I just don't feel like I'm good enough, you know? My self-esteem merely exists.

I'm changing. I'm really trying to be a better person.

Give me time?

Thursday, February 3

Love changes everything

Random fact #2

Things like this make me smile. It makes me think twice about.. hating (for lack of a better word) humanity and what everything has turned into.
I wish this was how things were everywhere else around the world. For all races and religions, you know?

I'm not racist, and I'm really against racism of any sort.

I'm not that bad or childish of a person, by the way.
I do have a heart. :-)

3 a.m., string of green lights in a row

So many things I'd wish for right now, so many things I wish I could say.
They'll all make me sound like an ungrateful brat.

I wish I was better than this.
I'm overreacting, I know.

Nobody knows how hard I've been trying or how hard this really is for me to accept, okay?
Shut up, stop judging.

And don't ask questions.

Tuesday, February 1

And all you're ever gonna be is mean.

Been so, so, so upset lately. Reminds me of June 2010.
That was horrible..

I really don't like this feeling.